Ok here goes, I am a christian and I have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder or OCD. I have not been formally diagnosed. However I do have a family history of mental illness. I have been a life long believer although I had fallen away from the Lord, and recomitted to my faith after my six year old was born in'03.
My compulsions were and are, obsessive cleaning, troubling thoughts (not just bad thoughts, I'm writing about violent disturbing images), and counting to name a few.
I've had this all my life but my symptoms worsened after I had my daughter...
So anyway I couldn't even hold my daughter when she was born because of my terrible thoughts. The only person I've confessed this to is my husband, I know it's a heavy burden to bear for only one or two people. I've had no therapy, no drugs, nothing physical get through this. Just knowing and walking with the Lord. He told me that my life, my daughters life, is not my own but his! This was mind boggling to me, but a huge relief! I have stewardship, I am accountable for what's done in my life, but he has the control over it.
Here's the tough part, suffering...everyone goes through it, especially believers. Jesus himself was not exempt. God surrendered his own son. Paul experienced depression in prison. Job and David openly cried out to the Lord. Why we have suffering I don't know, but since the fall it has made man seek the Lord.
My OCd forced me to examine myself, I came up short. I needed God...and fell in love with him all over again.
